here. now.

I often get carried away with the past; it usually clings to me until I’m bleary-eyed and walking through a fog of memories. I sometimes lose sight of the present, and I in turn begin to lose presence.

I took this photo after a yoga class last night. I really hadn’t seen it before I walked in – not really as I again slumped by, caught up in the chaos of thought. At that moment, it was just another dim unremarkable sign, overshadowed by the mesmerizing vivid hues of twilight. But after having left class, I was struck by this glow in the growing darkness. I stood beneath it, hypnotized as “here” blared down at me.

Passers by moved on without missing a beat, but I was struck. Looking up, I found the glow in the abyss, the thing to root me – the present. Here – as if lighting a path to relief. Suddenly, what once was, what could’ve been, and what never came to be didn’t feel so heavy. To find presence in a void is grounding. For me it’s certainly a start to lifting a long settled fog.

work in progress

I’ve been working on this series for about three years now. There’s been a lot of experimenting in this span of time, and I can honestly say that I’ve enjoyed watching the evolution of this project. This is a series of mine that I’m not quite sure where the end is, but I’ve loved every step of the creative process.  After reshooting the series to film, and playing with various scanning and print methods, I’ve finally made it to the collaging process which, believe it or not, I had the intention of executing early on in the project.

Later this week, I plan on posting a visual of the evolution of the project; every time I take a look back at the early workings of this series, it always gives me a little shock! For any fellow artists working on anything, I’d love to know how long your creative process/projects take – and is there a major difference from what was intended in the beginning to the end?

Have a great week!